In a good spot

'Tis not enough, taste, judgment, learning, join;

In all you speak, let truth and candour shine:

That not alone what to your sense is due,

All may allow; but seek your friendship too.

       Be silent always when you doubt your sense;

And speak, though sure, with seeming diffidence:

Some positive, persisting fops we know,

Who, if once wrong, will needs be always so;

But you, with pleasure own your errors past,

And make each day a critic on the last.

       'Tis not enough, your counsel still be true;

Blunt truths more mischief than nice falsehoods do;

Men must be taught as if you taught them not;

And things unknown proposed as things forgot.

Without good breeding, truth is disapprov'd;

That only makes superior sense belov'd.

       Be niggards of advice on no pretence;

For the worst avarice is that of sense.

With mean complacence ne'er betray your trust,

Nor be so civil as to prove unjust.

Fear not the anger of the wise to raise;

Those best can bear reproof, who merit praise.

(Alexander Pope, An Essay of Criticism)

Starting off the post with this poem as it's the intro to the book I'm currently reading and I thought I would share it with you guys.  The name of the book I'm reading now is called Unnatural Causes by Dr Richard Shepherd, he is a forensic pathologist based in UK.

I bought the book a few hours ago for my road trip this weekend (more of that a little later) and the narrative 'tells us the story not only of the bodies and cases that have haunted him most, but also how to live a life steeped in death.' I haven't gone too far into the book but seems like it would be a good read. Might give u guys an update on it later in the future. I'm excited to read it as I've really been interested in this genre for a while now but have refrained myself from buying it because I still have a few books I haven't start reading yet. I said to myself that I won't buy any new books to read until I finished the ones I have. However, after months passed and dust began to collect on those books that I have, I concluded that I should just move on and read something I'm keen on instead. I could revisit my 'old' books another time or even donate it if I have completely lose interest in it. 

I'm currently in a good spot in my life I think, at least for now. I just had a nice catch-up session with a friend of mine today. I've been reminding myself to keep in touch with my friends and family more occasionally because I think I'm in a good mental space and I'm ready to be more sociable. I loveeee being around people. I'm not an extrovert but being with other people, personally, really adds more to my life. I love interacting with people and seeing how they go about in their journey in life. I did take a year or two off from interacting with people, my family included, because I just really needed some time by myself and I'm grateful that I was able to do that. It was quite difficult as I like being around people and at times I want to reach out to people but it didn't seem right at that time, I didn't want them to feel like I'm playing them or be with them when it's most convenient for me and ignore them all other times. At times I felt guilty too, as I felt like I was abandoning others for my own selfishness and making them feel like they had done something wrong when clearly they haven't. But I was quite determined, actually it's more like my head is just a mess and I clearly really need to sort it out. Anyway, I don't want to write too long about this topic along cause I do any to give updates on different aspect of my life as I haven't properly done it with you girls in a while. In conclusions here, I'm slowly rekindling my relationships with my friends and family. 

As I mentioned before, I am going on a trip this weekend to NSW, specifically to visit Linguine's family. I will be travelling by car with his parents and for once I told my parents about out trip, and they approved. In NSW, L's aunt has a beautiful estate where they have a macadamia farm and the family is just such a kind and lovely family. I am very excited to share this experience with my parents. It's not my first time here, I've been there two to three times already tbh, but I can finally share a part of my journey and my relationship with L with them. This is quite an important milestone for our relationship in my opinion. I'll share some picture from the trip with you girls later on. 

As u know I have recently graduated, huge pressure lifted off from my shoulder. I'm currently unemployed and looking for work. Currently waiting for my visa to be approved as well. It has been difficult, mostly cause I'm impatient and I haven't been really active in my job search. But I got into my first interview recently and it for a good position, I'm excited for it. It's actually for the first job I applied to, it's been a month since I applied, so I kinda gave up on it until I received a phone call from them. I did a phone interview, proceeded to an in-person interview and next week I will be my third time interviewing with the company; each stage being interview by a member with more authority than the previous one. I didn't think I was gonna proceed to the third interview because it was for a full-time position and I can only work for a limited amount of time as I'm still on my student visa (internal screeching) but I got through. I am assuming that I'm still competing with candidates that's meets the requirements of what the company needs, so not getting my hopes too high up. It's for a graduate accountant position, it's with an energy company but I will be dealing with the clean energy aspect of the company.

Things that I have been really getting into these days are beekeeping, honey and skincare. Once I stumbled upon honey extractions and beekeeping, there was no going out. I'm totally obsessed with it, so far as to even include it in my interview when prompted about my interests. I also told L that I wanted to have my own small hive when we have a house. While on this topic, I also said I wanted to grow our own mushrooms. I'm kinda in a roll about wanting to produce some of the things I consume because it just seems so fascinating to me personally. In terms of skincare, it really started, I guess, when I watch a lot of Tati Westbrook's videos. I like her make-up style and her subtle approach of maintaining your skin from within. I when I am able to, I would like to try her product for skin, hair and nails - known as Halo Beauty. But what really got me into skincare was Susan Yara's series where she commentated other people's skincare regimen. She would give tips, advice and information about the method people are applying their skincare, the ingredient present in the product people are using and what's best for their skin type. I wanna learn more about the ingredients used in skincare and what are the benefits and drawbacks related to it. 

Lastly, I've noticed our blog becoming more and more rooted in English. I plan to try to incorporate more Malay in my posts in the future and I urge u guys to also write in Malay as well. The reason why I don't do my posts in Malay is because honestly, I don't have the confidence to. My English is not that good, but I'm not use to using Malay anymore and I don't want to sound kekok you know.  It's also one of the reasons why I'm quite timid on going back to Malaysia. It's horrible I know, like hello it's your own mother tongue language kot. I can do conversations and rojak but to work in an environment where I have to converse in professional Malay jargon is quite intimidating for me. 

Anyway, that's all for now. Catch you guys later in the future. 

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