I don't understand how this stupid, stupid contradiction can exist. 

I don't understand how all I ever feel for you is the opposite of what you say I'm showing.

How is it that I can spend years with pleasing you as my goal, and have that effort on every inch of my mind, and yet you claim that all I show is hatred.

How is it that I can't make you see that I live for your acceptance.

Why is it that I can never seem to make you sense my desperation for your approval of my existence.

How am I not able to make you see that you are all I live for.