Self-assessment.

Hi assalamualaikum girls! What a lovely gathering we had (have, lol if we're still having it)!

Looking back at Farhanah's camera roll's folder, there was an old video of us, cant remember whether it was recorded when we were 17 or 16, but yeah the moment I watched that old video back, I cringed a lot.

Neither at each of you; I was cringing at me. Myself.

I can feel the bitchiness (HAHAHA EXCUSE ME BUT THAT WAS REALLY THE WORD THAT CAME ACROSS MY MIND HAHAHHA) radiating from that video!!!! And the bitchiness came from no one else.....but ME. Oh my God. I feel horrible. Hahahahha

Its like I'm a walking package of Queen B in our group, which really, just like in those movies

• Loud ///checked!
• Dominating most(I MEAN ALL) of the conversation ///checked!
• Talk all the time LIKE LITERALLY ALL THE TIME ///checked!
• Bossy ///checked!
• Arrogant ///checked!
• Spotlight-stealer ///checked!
• Loves the attention given ///checked!
• SOMEONE WHO MUST BE ALWAYS RIGHT ///double checked!!

......kenapa korg still kawan dgn Aida....seriously....If I were you, I wouldnt befriend people like me.......

I wanna say sorry, but I dont want to. Bcs, I know I have to change for the better but for the meantime, for right now, even if I said sorry..the harm was done. So I'm sorry for the past...but for now, since I've already realized how bitchy I can be........I'll try to change.....insya-Allah aaminnn...

Its a good thing I watched that video though, seriously, its like having myself splashing cold water on my face, like look at you Aida...that is actually how you behaved around people...that you loved..how could you treat them like that..

And no before you feel like denying everything...dont. Its true tho. Seriously. Alhamdulillah Allah tunjukkan kat Aida harini hahahaha em apa yg kena ubah...I was in the dark..I thought I'm all good already.

My family always thought that since ugirls stick with me, I mean, since we're still friends, they thought I treat you a lot nicer than how I treated them...but really.....Ive always denied it and hoping that they could see it........but then....I am right, in some ways...

I do treat you girls horribly, I mean bitchily, just the same treatment I've always give to people.

Because I love you girls, I'm really sorry. I seriously am. Turns out all of you stick with me just because you endure my bitchiness, not because I treated you nicely...sorry tau..

The realization kinda sucks because it seems like I'm taking for granted of the people that actually care for me enough to stay in my life.

And this is how I repay all of you?

I'm so pathetic..