Definitely not as easy as ABC.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I'm less than 16 hours away from my final exam. It is the paper that I hate the most, RKA.
Dont get me wrong, I love the subject but the thought on testing my whole knowledge and understanding on some several questions, that turned me off. I'm so scared and nervous right now.


Anyway, thats not why I write.

Today, I'd like to write about Acceptance.

As I embarked (had to google translate that word LOL) my journey on college, I found that it was hard for me to cope with every thing. I also felt like every decision I made and every action I took was wrong and I felt so miserable. I couldnt adapt to the new surrounding as smooth as I hope. So I yet again, took another wrong action, which was I became dependent on you guys. Remember I used to text you alot, called you a few times compared to now, I used to rant a lot and whatsoever, it is because I now realized, I depend on the wrong person.

I shouldve turn to Him instead. I shouldve seek for Allah. But I was wrong. I was dumb. Not to say that I'm not now, but I hope my dumbness has lessened :D hahaha. But really. I'm sorry I bother you too much. No doubt Ive made you feel uncomfortable and irritated and also annoyed a few times bcs of my endless selfies (that one, I dont know if I'd be able to stop, soon alright? Baby steps plis hehe) so I'd like to apologize for that. I'm sorry. I shouldve known better that theres a fine line between best friend and psychologist. Lol. So yeah. And yes, I hope you guys are doing okay too. I mean, much more excellent than me right now. Haha.

Another one would be, I've now realized that everyone of us has changed, and yes while changes are nothing to be worried about as it is normal but it can be a bit troublesome if we failed to see eye to eye anymore. Taking me as example, I now realized that I just wanted to start afresh and not looking back at the past. I used to run away from my problems, walking away from people's lives when Ive had enough, but that, that is so wrong at so many levels. I dont want to be that person anymore. I dont want to be self-centered anymore. I dont want to be snappy anymore. I dont want to be selfish anymore. I dont want to be who I was anymore. I want to be for the better. Most importantly, I dont want to be that person who took granted of her beloved person anymore. I dont want her.

Thus. I hope the me you're meeting next time is a better version of me. Im really hoping on that. Wallahi I love you. Lillahita'ala insya-Allah. Pray for my wealth of health and knowledge will ya? Thanks x

Assalamualaikum.

Love, book

A long story short

Okay so, i wanted to post a very exciting news about me a few days ago, like from early last week. However, it seems that all my procrastination has left me with a pile of assignments that is due in 48 hours. Hence, the post was never type into any device and didn't make it to the blog.

Although, now, i believe that Allah really had planned everything cause I am glad that I didn't post it.

Okay. there is lots to talk about and I will blabber all I can here. I do realise that the video of Harry has not been posted and the other video had some problem occasionally as well. Meh. sorry guys. I'll just show u guys on October.

Ah, there is another important news I need to tell u guys. Unfortunately, I have to say that there is a possibility that I won't be traveling back to Malaysia once I finish my foundation. My parents are planning to come over to Australia and visit me instead. Sorry about that. I have to say that no matter what, I believe that the gathering should continue as planned even without me. Just go. Even though the glue is not there but the bond between u guys is still as strong as before right? As for the annual events we do, just proceed. Talk about that later in detail.

Okay next one. I had a presentation which I did last minute (like seriously, a few hours are not enough lesson learnt =_=) So I freak that one up. so idk. my parents are not satisfied from what I got for my mid semester report. Can't get my brain in tune this semester. Horrible.

Ah, about the exciting post. hm.. (to the person in BNE please keep it and don't tell anyone kay. I trust u. okayy????? so yeah please.) well, (still not sure about posting this but whatthefreak right. I believe in u guys) I realise that i like someone. like seriously guys this is like on the same level as the 7 year old dude =____= so i was kinda excited about that but then I know that that person likes someone else though. well idk. His answer was freaking vague man. idk. told someone my friends here but then they were saying that no, this person has a probability of reciprocating the feeling so dont give up plus I think that he kinda likes u. Dear friends, please Ya Allah. I really don't want what it to happen like the 7 years old guys again man. Freaking hell why wont u just freaking tell whether u like her or not.  Any way, idk what to do. I am currently running way from him. if he is in the com lab, I will for sure to go to the other one.

okay enough about that. yesterday was a wonderful day and I really wished it never stopped. It was one of the mentor's early celebration. went to skyzone trampoline. It was totally awesome! want to stay longer and try different tricks but sokay. thanks for the experience :) oh i sprained my ankle btw ahahahahahahah the first time i use the trampoline, I didnt realise that it was that bouncy. so, we went to the first section and i jump for a while to get use to the feeling of it. Then when I was gonna try a trick, I had a bad landing. I heard it click ahahhhaha. It burn like hell man at that time. so, it took a while for the pain to subside but i just kept playing hahahhhahahahahha. so stubborn. know ur limit man but i had no regrets. case after like a few sec rest, I started to jump again and i think that helped me to get use to the pain. after the first one, we went on to play a basketball and dodge ball. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE this place man. then we went off to go bowl and watch movie later. wish i could tell u guys but what happens that time stays at that time.  I want o do it againnnnn pleaseeee

tell u guys in detail when ever i can:)

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